Still lost somewhere in the midst of the teenage years, with wild rides, tears falling, plenty of drama, great friends and most of all the rocky road of self-discovery, but all that just makes life more worthwhile, doesn't it?
Saturday, 31 December 2011
Two-Oh-One-One.
Anyway, in just a few hours, we'll all (in Malaysia) be counting down to the new year. Soon, I'll be writing 2012 instead of 2011 on my exercises and work. Sometimes, it just seems like weeks ago that I discovered I was placed in 4S3 and wondering, will I actually fit in and mingle with my fellow classmates. Lo and behold, I've gotten more than what I could ever wish for, my best friends :D And yet, remembering all the things happening throughout the year, it seems like a very long time. Funny how perceptions distort reality (though...that's basically the definition of perception, isn't it?)
Way back to the beginning of the year, on the 31st of January 2011, SS Gang went on an outing for my belated birthday celebration. In fact, I think that was the only time my birthday was celebrated with friends. So, a memorable day indeed. And on Guan's birthday on 15 March, we went to his house early in the morning to scared him awake (although attempt failed, sort of). And then headed to Times Square and then steamboat dinner in the night, oh God, steamboat. Ages since we've done that. I miss you guys, and we stay so close to each other but don't see each other often anymore. We should totally go out soon, or just meet up. And be like the good ol' days. And then in July or something, someone just had to be a bitch and do stuff that I don't wanna remember. So we'll just leave it at that, probably the reason why we don't hang out as much anymore, eh?
Anyway, in the beginning it was strange, being in 4S3, different class, different people, different environment. But nevertheless, I had people I'd already known for quite some time together with me. But turns out neither of them were my best pals. Rather, the greatest people I've met were complete strangers to me. (Other than KY, I known you since like Form 2, through other people :P) The first class outing, which 90% of the people who came, formed EPC, my second family, I guess I can say so. And there are like so many (what do you call kelefeh in English again?) I'll go with 'irrelevant people' then, anyway there are a few of them in EPC actually, I don't know why their there. Oh well, going on, in-class fun, outing fun, it's always fun. Especially the Pangkor class trip, did I do a post on that? If I didn't it's 4 months overdue, anyway long story short, it was probably the best 3 days of the year. We've had somewhat a fall-out about 2 months ago. But that's behind us now. EPC - The best thing that has happened to me in 2011.
Come exam time, oops didn't do too well in this aspect, but nevermind, not the most important thing in my life. Your life is yours and mine is mine. So, let's just skip past that.
If I was required to fit 2011 into three words. They would definitely be, 'Ups and Downs' due to the numerous..well, ups and downs of course. 2012 is looming ahead, in just about 2 hours now. Time to make a resolution for 2012.
And my resolution is: To be me.
Simple, delightful and sweet. Cheers to a prosperous new year 2012! Raise your glasses, people!
Wednesday, 14 December 2011
Fastforward please?
January, I'M WAITING. In the meantime, there's still Christmas to enjoy :D (And the day the PMR results will be released, -evil laugh commences- MUAHAHAHA)
Tuesday, 13 December 2011
WATCH: The Speech You’ve Been Waiting For
Hillary Rodham Clinton’s address before the United Nations in Geneva will be remembered by history, with the Secretary of State unabashedly arguing to the world that LGBT rights are human rights.
http://news.advocate.com/post/13844217337/watch-the-speech-youve-been-waiting-for
Pain-free Shots
Saturday, 10 December 2011
Wednesday, 7 December 2011
Shop Till You Drop.
And what is wrong with me liking purple and orange? They happen to be really beautiful colors. But apparently my parents say I shouldn't like either one 'cause I'm a guy. Hello? I'm a guy with exotic taste thank you very much.
"I scream, 'Mom and dad why can't I be who I wanna be?'"So that's that, and thank you both very much for the gorgeous fabulous watch.
- Hair; Lady Gaga
Tuesday, 6 December 2011
Bored.
Quote.
Don't get confused between my personality and my attitude. My personality is who I am, my attitude depends on who you are."This is unmistakable. Amen.
-Stay Positive.
Obstacles? Fuck those.
A fact: I don't like rules. I don't like limitations. I don't like it when the simplest of things hampers the process of me doing something. More so, something I really want to do. I don't like being conformed. And I'd just ignore it if I can. School rules and the law are okay for two reasons. One, I have no choice so I'll have to do so. Two, they don't prevent me from doing anything I want to. Other than homework, thus me not really doing it. I don't like to be ordered to do something. Sure, nobody does, but I'll actually be tempted to snap the person's neck right there and then.
Monday, 5 December 2011
Sunday, 4 December 2011
So there!
So, today, I literally spent the entire evening and night rewatching Brothers and Sisters. This is like my favourite TV show ever and nothing will pull me away (other than dinner). Family drama, sometimes, okay many times I wish I had a close family relationship like theirs, you probably don't know what I'm going on about and you never will until you watch the show. Some people would say it's boring, but it's so full of emotion and love and drama and crisis's and just screams out "FAMILY" to me. I remember I cried a time or two watching this last year. God, it's been a year already.
So, tomorrow parents will be around so I guess I'll have to do menial mediocre chores rather than curling up on the couch (alone. Sad, isn't it?) and watch my B&S all day. Maybe I'll do that at night then.
And I finally admit it, I have an unhealthy obsession with notebooks, I just can't stop thinking about getting new ones all the time. No I'm not talking about laptops, I mean real notebooks, with paper. God, why do they have to make them so damn expensive. Well not all, but the cheap ones suck.
Saturday, 3 December 2011
True? Or false?
"It's not that I've been dishonest, it's just that I loathe reality."These words ring true. I don't know how many lies I've already conjured up, mostly to make myself feeling better. Many things are untrue, but even then I manage to deceive myself into thinking that it's true. So, either I'm mentally disturbed, or I'm a fucking good actor/liar. O:
Friday, 2 December 2011
New Tumblr Layout.
And new link too :D Visit at:
http://climbincaminofront.tumblr.com/
I totally love the new look of my Tumblr.
And I changed the name, it's now 'carpe diem' which means 'Seize the day' in Latin.
Don't worry if you don't see The Edge Of Glory on top anymore :P
Thursday, 1 December 2011
Shutter
Wednesday, 30 November 2011
Of Flour, Sugar and Eggs.
And I need to diet -.- So fat. Sad, innit? I wanna look nice and slim. (Oh God, I must be dreaming. :X) But first, Attempt, yes. Then fail? Maybe. Regret? Never. :D
I was up at 3am last night, well this morning. Reading Darren Shan's Cirque du Freak (Y) And I finished it. And now I started on Celia Rees' Blood Sinister. Quite a good book. I have this slight interest in vampires, you should know.
Tuesday, 29 November 2011
Slow Down.
New stuff :D
Sunday, 27 November 2011
Take Care
"'Know you been hurt by someone else,
I can tell by the way you carry yourself.
If you let me,
Here's what I'll do,
I'll take care of you.
I've loved and I've lost."
-Rihanna. (Take Care - Drake ft. RiRi)
The Edge Of Glory.
"It's about also knowing in your heart that you may never reach that glorious moment until you die, so live life on the edge, y'know half way between heaven and hell, and let's all dance in the middle, in purgatory."
-Lady Gaga.
Of Books and Ex-classmates.
Thursday, 24 November 2011
Bored. (Again)
Sitting at home doing nothing sucks.
It's a total drag.
And I can't drive yet, so I can't go out by myself.
Other than walking around the garden.
Sad, isn't it?
So I'm sitting here, contemplating on whether
I should stand my president up tomorrow,
Or go to school as he said.
And why am I writing in lines?
Because I want to. (Duh!)
Why? Because I want to, DUH! |
So, I shall go out with my mom one day soon.
And buy groceries and stuff.
Then I shall make cookies and cupcakes.
That sounded way girlier than I thought it would,
But you're not listening,
You're reading.
So you don't know what it sounds like.
(Win)
Tuesday, 22 November 2011
Untitled. (Well actually, it's titled 'Untitled :x)
There's always that random .gif or picture on Tumblr for any occasion. For example, for sad moments.
Sunday, 20 November 2011
Bored
Downloaded 2 games for my Android today (Illegal download from SnappzMarket), and played with the one called Spirit for quite some time.
OH YES, I watched Shark Night today, totally awesome, even if the CGI is a little on the unconvincing side, but nevertheless a good movie. The plot and stuff were kinda expected though. More like a more subtle version of Piranha 3D.
Friday, 18 November 2011
I'm gonna Marry The Night.
Hot.
SAD DIE INDEED. It took, what, 6 cups of water just to swallow to Panadol pills. And thus, my fever receded, FOR NOW. Still feeling a little hot though. :/ Sad.
Tea Lesson
So conclusion: SUGAR/CONDENSED MILK IS ESSENTIAL.
Thursday, 17 November 2011
ICanRelate and TeenagerPosts
Here's another nice Tumblr blog I discovered, talking about relatable things and sarcastic replies and all that. It ain't half bad. It's not all the authors original memes, but most are his/her own, the author reblogs others' posts too. :D Of course, not every one is totally accurate, but have a look. :D
http://icanrelate.info/
Oh there's another similar one.
http://teenagerposts.tumblr.com/
Wednesday, 16 November 2011
:/
We're ten thousand miles apart,
And I've been California wishing on these stars,
For your heart, for me.
Outing with Tek, Jay, XY, Rach and the Twins
So, in the end, after walking around for like, 10 minutes? Then we went to have a late breakfast (and my second breakfast, god I'm a pig) at McD. Slowly sipping on coffee while chatting some more until XY appeared, then chat more, and then Rach arrived, and then chat even more, then Jay came, and guess what? No we didn't chat some more (SAD) we went, uhh, shopping? And then evidently, Yenn and Junn came and all of us (well them, I didn't) went for lunch at Food Republic, WHICH I NEVER KNEW EXISTED IN 1U -_- I need to go there more often. Then went to the arcade and they played for like an hour? (I just realized I'm like a party-pooper that doesn't join them, lunch and arcade, SAD DIE ME)
Okay this is boring, so I'll just skip to the more interesting part. The movie, rated 18SX, which actually isn't that... explicit anyway, just a scene of 2 guys masturbating in class, a guy with a perpetual boner, the guy being naked at home (but doesn't show his dick), and uhh a scene showing two guys doing it in the dorm shower (only the feet). SO THERE'S NOTHING SO 18SXistic of it. But the movie is damn sweet and touching and romantic. (Heart) It's like, many guys like girl, girl especially likes one (the star), that guy is naughty and lazy and immature, but girl still likes guy and vice versa, and then some drama, and they separate but the guy still longs for the girl, and then after a few years the girl gets married to some old creep, guy and friends attend wedding. After wedding the guys ask the groom if they can kiss the girl (the Disney song LOL, anyway). Groom says they have to kiss him the way they wanna kiss her. And guy (yes that guy) just like, makes out with the groom (YAOI :D) on the table, and in the end he got to kiss her. SWEET, SO TOTALLY SWEET. (And that is all, apparently it's so much better on screen :/)
Sat around with XY (her dad's fetching me back) and Jay at Auntie Anne's, then we left. OH, and Tek, Yenn, Junn and Rach evidently vanished when we wandered into the MacCity shop, ABANDONING US NOW? Oh well, and the car ride back was like super long, and I accidentally fell asleep, hopefully I didn't snore -_-. And now I'm back here, bored. HOW SAD INDEED.
So it was a... strange, in a way, outing today. AT 1U, which is like super far. But not bad. Not bad indeed. I liked the chitchatting part the most (sort of) though.
Photos (Okay, only a few, taken on my phone):
Tuesday, 15 November 2011
True
Stay Positive
http://www.staypositive.me/
Quotes and tips to keep oneself happy and not dwell on the past. I'll leave it on my Links at the sidebar.
Monday, 14 November 2011
So-many-things-in-one-post.
Today, I followed Mum to KL, on her way to work, so she could drop me off at an LRT station to school. Which I did. Unfortunately, there was quite a traffic jam on the way, so it took some time. (In other words, I was late.) Walking to school from the Taman Jaya LRT station is quicker and less tiring than the other way round.
Had McD for lunch at Mid Valley. ALONE. HOW SAD. Oh well, gives me the liberty to walk around seeing my own things after. I had a piano class today, but I rescheduled it, feeling sick. Hopefully will feel better tomorrow. Then go 1U while Mum has her dance lesson. Go visit Jayden :D If he lets :/ How sad.
Oh, sista is in Penang. HOW SAD. Miss you already :/ But then, we have Maxis to connect us. LOL (Apparently I've used 'how sad' 4 times) How sad (oops, make that 5)
I just realized, seeing from people's blogs and Facebooks, that I have no one to love. HOW SAD (...6). Oh well, I don't need somebody to love (JB's song) now anyway :P As long as I'm loved, it's enough. LOL (self-centered bitch much?) Naww, of course I have people I love. EPC is a prime example. But obviously, not THAT kind of love. :x
Sunday, 13 November 2011
Declutter.
Apparently, I attempted so many hobbies, and failed in almost everyone of them. Stamp collecting, yeah obviously that didn't work out. Sketching, in the end my sketches were...I don't know what they were about. And diary-writing. Yeah, that diary lasted for barely 2 weeks.
Packed up so many books, children's books and such, because I've outgrown them, and some of them are still in good shape, so probably donating to a charity/orphanage, or giving to my old Science teacher. Also, I found some antique comics from like, 1974. 37 years old, that's even longer than my age doubled. And there's just so much dust everywhere that I keep sniffling and sneezing the whole time. Found a book Zongxuan gave me for my 7th birthday too. LOL I remember we used to be great friends, and now...uhh, we barely speak. :/ HOW SAD.
I also have like, reference books that I've never touched, let alone do. Such a waste. Oh! And I found my gorgeous old notebook, which I've only used like 4 or 5 pages. HOW SAD AGAIN. Oh the joy and bliss of innocence of reading some of those children's books again. Finally, the mess is undone. I can go to school and outings already! Hurrah (hurrah sounds so...sad, ugh -.-)
Oh, and when I was vacuuming the place. I accidentally sucked up a pair of silk socks which were behind my bed. THEY'RE NOT EVEN MINE. And also two 10cent coins, a measuring tape and A WHOLE LOT OF DUST BUNNIES. I can't even...
Still got lots more of books to get rid of, but some are still awesome. and they fit on the shelf perfectly. A full shelf looks more professional than a shelf with empty slots here and there. I still don't know how a innocent-looking shelf could hide so much crap. Probably in like 2 weeks. The shelf will be full of crap again, and the process begins again. (in like a year.)
ACCOMPLISHMENT! On the second day of holiday. Awesome :D
Saturday, 12 November 2011
The End? No.
At the beginning of the day, I swept and cleared all the fucking crap from the classroom, because the LKT teacher told me to. It looked pretty clean then. But by the end of the day, APPARENTLY, RUBBISH GROWS FROM THIN AIR. I don't know why I still bother with it. I will totally murder anyone who votes for me to stay as KK next year. I WILL CUT YOU, BITCH.
The year of my being in Form 4, came and went, just like that. So fast that I didn't even notice the end was nearing, until the actual end. Met a bunch of friends. No, not friends. Family ♥ Tek, Jay, Kyan, Alvin, XY, Hong, Jean, Xiang, especially. I'd kept the thought throughout last year's year-end break that "Please, let next year be different, let next year be fun, let me have fun." And you guys, made my wish came true. Over and over again. I HAVE NO REGRETS, and never will, NEVER EVER. :'D So much has happened in just these 11 months. So many things have been said, I know I'm not the nicest, greatest nor best person in the world. But, thank you so much, really, for putting up with me and my crap. Thank you, for making my life more awesome. Thank you for just being there. Thank you for everything.
It's not the end, neither will next year be.
♥ Bryan.
Friday, 11 November 2011
Final Farewell.
Well, I guess this is it. It ended. Form 4 life is over. Goodbye 4S3, goodbye dirty old classroom; and HELLO 5S3, HELLO dirty new classroom. But the saddest thing of all, is that today was the last day we'll probably get to see Puan Sim in a long while. Today, Rueyying, Yinyin, Zhongyih, Isabel, John and myself went to present our 'card thingy' to teacher. She was so touched and happy and proud and...oh god, now I feel like crying. Bel, Ying and Yin had tears streaming down their cheeks as we spent some time with teacher. Got teacher's autograph on my 'professionalism book', actually wanted it on my Physics notebook, but in the morning rush I forgot to put it in my bag.
I don't wanna type out everything, or I'll cry. Everything I want to say is on the card, in the blue envelope.
Puan Sim, we meant what we wrote on the card, you are 4S3's ONE AND ONLY Physics teacher, and we will NEVER EVER forget you and your love towards us. We love you, teacher. ♥
Happy retirement, teacher! You most certainly deserve it. Good luck, and God bless you. You will be dearly fondly remembered by me and class 4S3 of 2011.
Thursday, 10 November 2011
Chained
Parting
Every day now, I only feel like sleeping and doing nothing, but then I don't sleep in the end, until late night, which makes me even sleepier the next day (sometimes, sometimes I feel high). Strange me. SAD
Tomorrow will be the last day of school. I am totally not going to say goodbye to anyone. "Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting," quote Peter Pan. I will never forget. Besides, how can you say goodbye to someone you can't live without? That's like suicide.
After the bell tomorrow, we will be separated for 53 days. 53 long days without them. (Assuming we don't go for a trip/outing together, which we most definitely will). Unless some people stay back? Then we'll totally meet, but then when we get into our cars and leave, it's the same story. Good luck and stay happy y'all! Until the 4th of January in the year of 2012, we will see each other in the familiar school uniform and our new classroom. WHICH IS DOWNSTAIRS SO WE DON'T NEED TO CLIMB ALL THE WAY UP ANYMORE! :D
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
Two-Days
Today, Puan Chee took me and Xin Yin out for lunch. Last time she said whoever guessed 'Who ate the most of this ice cream?' on a photo of a banana boat when she went out with other teachers. I got it right :P SUCH A CLEVER BOY! Went all the way to Damansara Uptown, because she said the Nasi Lemak Ayam Goreng is nice. And it was, actually. It's a small (okay maybe not that small) coffeeshop-esque place called Village Park in Damansara Uptown (I already said that -.-). Took some photos :D Waiting for her the upload then. She dropped me and XY off at the Kelana Jaya LRT station where we thanked her again. And then I took the LRT while she took a bus. Okay this is meaningless crap that no one cares about. But this post seemed so short, I just had to.
Overall, it's been a somewhat boring two days. Hopefully the next two will be spectacular as to end the school year on a sweet note. Oh, and dad got me a new pretty black silicon-ish case for my Streak 5 :D Thankyouuuu.
Monday, 7 November 2011
Back to September
Ooh La La
The angularity! The glass panes!
Stones and whites.
Perfection.
I could just live in a kitchen like this, totally.
I used 'totally' 3 times in 1 short post.
Happy Birthday, Bro! ♥
You will probably never read this, but never mind. One day you will.
This is my brother, as of today, he's officially 15 years of age. Another year older, hopefully another year wiser and another year more handsome too! I remember when we were younger, we had so many things to talk about. Our fantasy universe of talking mice as a dominant race and intergalactic battles. The stupid and lame, but oh-so-fun games we'd used to play on roadtrips just to kill time. Time well spent together, I would say. Now we're more grown up, not that interested in such things any more. But it'll be forever etched in my memories.
Today, we have totally different lives, different interests, different personalities, different looks. Some people don't even think we're actually related, let alone siblings before seeing our names, or seeing us together. Sometimes, we say we don't even like each other. Well sometimes that's true, we annoy each other often enough. But the Malay proverb quotes that "air dicincang tidak akan putus" which translates to "water will not break even when you slice it" which means, however much we fight, we will always love each other, the relationship will never be terminated.
That time mama just realized you weren't in 15 yet, so she didn't let you go on your PD trip. Which is true, you weren't even 15 until today. But she thought you were already 16, because you look so matured and grown up, act mature too. Although sometimes your rashness ends up with you doing something dumb. But, I'm not even 17 yet, and you're 16 already? Yeah right :P
Tomorrow I'm making dinner (I think), unless you wanna go out somewhere nice for dinner? HAHA. Anyway, happy birthday again! Kor loves you, you know that? ♥ And when we're totally older, we should like go out and celebrate together :P
P/S: And so sad (or happy depending on how you like it), tomorrow's a holiday, so you won't get raped by all your friends. HAHAHA! Never mind, they'll probably get you on Tuesday anyway. :P
Sunday, 6 November 2011
I-don't-know-what-to-name-this-post
Was texting my brother, who was sitting like 2 metres away from me that time, through Viber. Free calls and texts, who can say no? Anyway, it's his birthday tomorrow, or more like in 1 hour plus. Happy early birthday kiddo!
Missing it.
Last night, something I've missed for a long time went down. Pervy talk and hyper-ism returned to EPC. This was the base of establishment of EPC from the beginning. This was why we got together in the first place. But alas, that feeling had vanished for some apparent reason...
This is all.
Saturday, 5 November 2011
Plans
- Screw, lots of paperwork to be done for next year's UBK events (Secretarism), letters of application and stuff for camp, and then go camp-venue hunting with Zi Lun soon.
- OMG I totally need to diet :x and go running and stuff, 减肥 O: (I don't like the English term for it LOL)
- Be like those dramatic people in movies and stuff (I suddenly forgot they're called actors and actresses but I'd leave that term there anyway) wake up and sit in bed doing nothing sipping on some tea/coffee and read a book.
- SLEEP LATE, WAKE UP EARLY.
- Watch movies that I told myself I'd do during the previous holidays (Especially Inception, so many recommendations for that movie)
- Read my books that I'd said I would read last holiday (see my total-ignore-holiday-plans-ism?)
- Do something productive, CLEAN THE EPIC MESS I CALL MY "ROOM". :x
- Go out with friends :D I WANT BEACH-FUN-IN-THE-SUN.:/
- Damn, need to start tuition/studying for next year's stuff, somewhere in December bah :P (I know it's kinda late, but better than not starting at all yeah? Better later than never :x)
Thursday, 3 November 2011
Graduation and Puan Sim :'D
Today was also Pn Sim Chay Ngee's retirement ceremony. Pn Sim is our dear beloved Physics teacher, whom the whole class loves. I teared up a little during our performance. We from 4S3 along with her students from 4S7 and L6SF gave her the song 《掌声响起》which translates into "Applause Rising" (or something). We love you, Pn Sim! I miss you already )': And I myself know you're still gonna be with us for one more week. The last week, it will be as memorable as ever. I also had tears in my eyes when she was leaving the school compound.
When I began my form four life, at the beginning of this year. I looked through the books, and I thought that I would die in Physics, but Pn Sim, even though at first I still didn't like it for awhile, made me realize that it's awesome and okay-not-so-but-still interesting. Puan Sim, without you, I think I would have flunked Physics already. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have cared about Physics this much. Without you, I wouldn't have thought there was any more teachers as dedicated as yourself. ♥ "When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone, the face I came to know is missing too." Didn't get to take pictures with her today, never mind, still got next week.